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"Nobody care about me", "nobody love me" "I am an alien, I am a stranger" "I feel lonely" "Nobody listen to me" "I really want to talk, to chat with people but they just want me to shut my mouth up" "I don't want to spend the nights alone" "Why the night seem so long?" "I wish tomorrow come earlier so that I could be together again with my friends" "I wish I have a true friend, even though it just one, I promise I will treasure him"

My friends, If those statements fit you, it means you are lonely. You want to have a true friend but you can't find. In your heart it seem like you want to shout loudly from the top of your roof, "Hey people of the world, it is me. I am alive. I am here. I am exist. Talk with me." "Why everybody is busy with their own? Why I am alone? Why nobody want to be my friends?"

It is our nature to be heard, to be listened, to be loved, to be acknowledged that we are exist. And if our need can't be satisfied, we are having a big problem. 

Some of you will choose to stay in quietness, shut your mouth and make yourself busy by playing games, working without end, or even going to personal development class, etc. You have tried to find people who want to speak with you, but you can't and in the end you just got tired and choose to keep silent. You find life is so boring, everyday is the same and you don't know what to do, life is just a routine. To deal with it, you look for something to occupy yourself in it.

I always wonder myself for when I was a kid I used to ask my father to play Nintendo or PS with me, but he always refused. He said it is not for him for he had better thing to do. But if I see people today, mature people spend sleepless night with their online games, they don't go to work, don't take care of themselves, just playing all the day. Even the 60 years old nanny still jump and dance with their console. They become like me when I was a kid. What's going on in this earth, my friends? Are there not many better things to do instead of wasting the day playing?

The reason is they want to have friends, but everybody is busy with their own. They need something to make them occupied, to make them happy, to make them forget their boring life, to have pleasure from it. They are lonely, and if the lonely person met another lonely person, they make groups called "online gathering", with their dual personality. There somebody can say "Hi, I am Uncle Sam", "I am George Bush", and nobody cares, you can be whatever you like. They are chatting each other, teasing each other, even falling in love one another in the cyber space, the unreal world.

Many of those who addicted to computer games are having problems during interaction with people. They are not used to talk with people face by face for they spend the whole day in front of monitor. They don't know how to open conversation, to be a good listener, good speaker for they spend the whole day in silent, occupied with their games. They need to find a true friend, not something to make them occupied.

Some of you like to go and find crowd. You like to go to the party, just to be in the midst of people. You don't want to stay alone in your room, waiting the night to end. You don't want those nightmares to come and haunt you again and again. The later the night, the more the people come to the party. Party clubs will be fully crowded at 2 am. Can you imagine that, my friends? When many people are sleeping, you choose to stay awake and even spend money to go in there.

Another behaviour driven by the same spirit: lack of public attention.

Some of you think if you are talkative enough, people will talk with you, you think that if you talk to everybody, at least some of them will listen so that you will have good conversation, But the result is not like that, people will just get irritated with you. People will say to you, "Sorry, I am busy. I don't have time for that, go and find other people". You talk and talk until you are tired of yourself.

Some of you think if you are funny enough, people will notice you. Many of you like to tell jokes, make yourself a fool just to gain attention and after you tell your biggest jokes, you laugh out loud, alone because you always tell the same jokes. For the first time people laugh, for the second time they still laugh, but for the third time they will think that you are boring. Or some of you will always try and try to make a new joke, you force yourself to do that. Do you know what will happen? In my country many comedians use drugs, commit suicide. Why? Because they are deceiving themselves. They make fun of themselves just to make people happy. They lower their level to "stupidity" that no one in this world would be stupid enough to think and to behave like that and for them it is funny. They job to make other people happy even though they themselves are not happy. In the end, people will just laugh at your stupidity not at your joke.

Imagine, you are 40 or 50 years old, but you behave like a child or even you act like a monkey,, you make your face like a clown. Sorry, I am not condemning people who are comedians. They are a lot of genius comedians who speak with wisdom, not making fool of themselves. They are the true comedians and they are happy. But to those people who make themselves fool just to make other people laugh and get attention, you are in great danger of losing yourself, my friends. Please think about it.

Some of them think if they are weird enough, people will think that they are exist. They tattoed themselves, pierced themselves, modified themselves. They make their tongue divided like a serpent, they modified their teeth like animal, they even have electronic tail. Do you think it is cool? They are not cool but they are indeed weird. These people have problem with public attention, with acceptance from others, they lack of praise, they lack of care. They are deceiving themselves.

How about you? How many tattoo you have? How many piercing you have? Go and ask your mother about it, if she is the good mother, she will be very upset. My friends, you are fearfully and wonderful made by God. He used His wisdom to create you, you are not a mistake, you are not a failure. God has purpose in making you the way you are. Do you know that you are insulting God, your Creator, if you modified your body and can't accept what He has given you?  

Some of you will do your best to join Idol contests, superstar contests or beauty contests. You want to make yourself as an "idol". You want people to commit idolatry by idolizing you and at the same time, you make yourself as an object. You are no more of yourself, you always think to please your audiences, even though you yourself are not happy about it. You have to wear bikini suit in front of many people even though you are not in the swimming pool so that people can see the beauty of your body, you have to learn how to answer those question to satisfy the people even though it doesn't agree with your own mind, you have to reply every postcards, and the worst part is, you make people commit adultery with you for the Bible said, "But I tell you that anyone who looks at a woman lustfully has already committed adultery with her in his heart (Matthew 5:28)". Maybe you don't realize how many young and old men do masturbation because they see your almost naked body? Do you feel comfortable in doing that?

Now you are still young, you don't have children yet, your digest system still work perfect. Once you are pregnant, once your digest system start to deplete, you can't keep your body. Will those people still love you? I don't think so. There will always be another pop-stars, another idols. And how about your face? Wrinkle start to appear and your beauty faded away. What will you do? Plastic surgery, botox injection? You are deceiving yourself and others by doing that. You are 40 years old and still want to appear like a 17 years old. My friends, you are also in great danger. Your loneliness, your lack of praise, lack of public attention will drag you from bad to worse. 

Some of you can't hold yourself, even though you know that you lack of talent in singing, you keep trying and trying, every casting of those idol contests you were there trying your luck and the result is the same, you are rejected or they will put you as a fool for their own TV polling program, they make fun of you, they give you difficult song to sing and people will again laugh at your stupidity and your false tunes but you still think you are awesome. This is meaningless, my friends, chasing after the wind. The beauty of the people is in their character, their heart, their behaviour, not their appearance.   

Are you not tired of this kind of lies? Why you keep deceiving yourself, my friends?